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Hari libur & sakit mata

2011-01-03T08:33:00.001+07:00

Hello, people out there! Hari ini pertama kalinya dalam liburan kali ini bangun pagi-pagi lho. Tadi malem sebelum tidur kan aku minta bangunin gitu sama ibu terus janji mau main sepeda keliling komplek. Jadi tadi pagi bangun jam setengah enam, cuci muka, gosok gigi, langsung caw main sepeda keliling komplek. Si lala sama ibu main badminton depan rumah. Aku keliling kompleknya cuma dua jalur. Yang pertama jalur komplek 1, terus yang kedua cuma ngelilingin taman bunderan yang di tengah komplek itu. Capek sih. Abisnya kan itu jalur komplek 1 nanjak-nanjak gitu kan. Terus itu sepeda kalo diputer-puter giginya, rantenya suka copot terus jadi ribet gitu pasti. Jadi ya aku gak ngubah-ngubah gigi, cuma punya modal tenaga buat nanjaknya. Pake gigi satu. Yaaa gitu deh. Oh iya terus mata sebelah kanan aku gatel udah dari dua hari yang lalu gak ilang-ilang. Harusnya sih iya gak boleh digosok-gosok. Tapi reflek gitu, kalo udah kerasa gatel langsung ngegosok mata lagi tanpa sadar. Sadarnya tuh waktu tangannya udah ngegosok mata. Matilah daku huhuhu. Ini pasti iritasi mata. Soalnya selama liburan aku kerjaannya depan komputer terus. Mau nyantai tapi gak ada kerjaan. Mau baca buku kelewat terus. Gimana dong ini? Ada yang tau gak obat sakit mata yang ampuh apaan? Udah dipakein insto tetep gatel. Kayanya emang harus cuci mata deh. Eh? Haha!

Ew

2011-01-02T21:38:00.001+07:00

I sometimes feel envy and jealous and love her in a time. I like her style, her smile, and how she laughs. I think she's prettier when she had a long hair. Well, even pixie cut is not bad, I mean "Uh-mazing". She'd grown up that much and being the prettiest girl in the world. I don't know what to say anymore, but believe me; I LOVE HER. I FANCY HER.

MMXI

2011-01-02T12:24:00.001+07:00

Happy new year, everybody! Well, I spent the New Year's Eve at one of my friends' home. We cooked the grilled chicken with sambal, tahu, and else. It's such a fun! And I did take some fireworks picture for the first time since I had a DSLR. Not bad, btw. So, yeah, how was yours?

So, there's no picture of me, sadly. But however, Happy New Year, once again! Resolution? Errr.... just do it later, i think hehe. Wish Allah guides us with every step we take ahead. Bismillah, 2011! Yaaay!

failed

2010-12-29T18:03:00.001+07:00

Rencana hari ini tuh asalnya...
1. Beli kaos timnas
2. Nonton bareng.

Asalnya. Tsk.

2010-12-29T14:44:00.002+07:00

Ok so first idk how I'm supposed to start this. Perasaan aku gimana ya pas udah liat twit kamu. Bukan, bukan twitnya temen sd kamu itu atau siapa. Twit kamu. Aku pikir ya terus kenapa kalo ga ikut? You lose her, or what? Pas diliat ternyata ada RTan dari temen aku & kamu. Ya..................... aku gak taulah mau gimana. Pengennya mah ketawa sekanceng-kencangnya biar gak nangis lagi.

Aku, intinya, sudah capek sakit hati. Aku tau kamu emang ga ngapa-ngapain. Ga ada salahnya kalo silaturahmi, kan? Udah kesepakatan pula. Tapi mindset aku yang "oh dia ga mungkin kontak2an lagi sama cewe itu" udah tertanam di otak dan pas sekalinya baca, mungkin kamu tau gimana kejadian orang kalo udah ada mindset terus ternyata mindsetnya salah. Ya. Km juga ngerasa kaya gitu kan di komen status fb aku dan cowo itu?

We both same.

Sampai saat ini ternyata aku belum bisa ngerubah mindset aku tentang silaturahmi. Aku kira kamu udah. Ternyata belum. Jadi kita sama aja.

Selain itu, aku ngajak putus bukan gara-gara problem ini aja. Problem yang ini istilahnya cuma sebagai hal yang lebih meyakinkan aku buat putus aja. Sekarang. Mungkin waktunya ga tepat atau apa. Kamunya juga marah sama aku, dan aku tau kamu ga ada maksud apa-apa. Kita putus juga dulu gara-gara masalah ginian. Sekarang berantem gara-gara masalah yang sama.

Capek ga sih? Capek, kan? Sama, aku juga.

Hal yang ada dalam keputusan pengen putus, 99%nya adalah rengking aku turun. Jeblok. Kamu gak tau perasaan aku waktu hari kamis itu kaya gimana. Drop. Bego. Tolol. Jatoh ke dasar yang paling dalam. Mungkin berlebihan, tapi kamu gak tau bahwa rengking satu itu udah jadi beban yang harus aku pertanggungjawabkan.

Aku gak ngerasain adanya support dari kamu selama UAS. Kamu cuma ngingetin dari sms. Mana aku bisa beneran belajar kalo ngingetinnya cuma gitu? Aku pengen liat bukti fisik. Dan gak ada yang aku dapetin. Mungkin kamu heran, tapi aku punya bukti. Inget waktu novi ke rumah buat bantuin tugas artistik padahal besoknya uas? Pas di depan rumah aku tanya "Mau ikutan apa engga. Terserah sih mau pulang atau di sini juga.". Kamu jawab, "Ya udah aku pulang aja." Dari situ aku mikir kok gini ya. Tapi aku maklumin, mungkin kamu juga butuh belajar. Bukan cuma bantuin pacarnya aja.

Terus kamu dateng, deden dateng. Dari sebanyak orang yang ada di rumah, yang bener-bener ngabantuin itu cuma Novi. Aku minta kamu bacain materi Manpro, biar aku bisa sekalian ngapalin, ternyata gak mau kan kamunya? Jangan nyangkal, aku masih inget sampe sekarang.

Kamu boleh pikir aku egois. Karena emang aku egois. Aku egois buat masa depan aku sendiri. Aku egois biar orang tua aku gak usah kerja lagi kalo udah tua. Aku egois biar bisa dapet ranking lagi.

Maaf, sekali lagi, aku emang egois. Tapi kamu bisa bedain mana yang positif dan negatif.

Dan kamu juga tau, kan, sebelumnya. Kalo aku ga dapet ranking lagi, kita putus? Aku gak main-main, Bem. Sama sekali engga.

Aku lakuin ini buat aku, keluarga, dan kamu. Biar kamu gak usah ada yang nyepetin lagi kalo ngetwit atau ngewall ke cewek. Biar kamu gak usah ada perasaan gak enak lagi.

Kita sama-sama egois. Dan satu-satunya yang bisa nyelesein ini cuma itu.

Aku gak tau harus ngomong gimana lagi. Aku gak mau nangis. Makanya aku ketawa. Bahkan syarat kedua yang aku ajuin, kamu gak pernah berusaha buat wujudin. "Aku gak mau nangis terus.". "Ya". Bohong.

Makasih, ya. Kalo jodoh gak akan kemana kok. Sementara ini aku pengen sendiri dulu. Banyak beban.

Flipped. The most beautiful love story ever.

2010-12-29T00:00:00.001+07:00

So this is a movie about a girl meets her new neighbor. She loves him. He hated her. He thought she was annoying. But she kept on stalking. Something hurt her feelings. She started to move out of his life. But the more she moved, the more he realized that he likes her. He flipped. And it's the most beautiful thing ever happened. They both love each other. Sycamore tree. Eggs.

You'll know what I mean. I waste so much tears because of this movie. Titanic does have the most beautiful love story ever, but sorry, in my opinion, this is the most most mosstt beautiful love story ever. I recommend this for you. Even if you guys think this is not really important, then I can keep this movie only by myself. So I'm not pleading you guys to watch this, but I just wanna tell you that this worth your attention :')

You'll be touched.

For God's sake. I'm truly crying.

Because they were each other's first love.
Because for her, it was always only him.
Because he eventually realized what was always there.
Because he planted her, her very own sycamore tree.

Gulliver's Travel

2010-12-27T01:03:00.002+07:00

New York and Europe. Converse and Boots. iPhone and Letter. Fat and Stocky. Lilliput and Lilliput.

"There's no tiny job. There's only tiny people."

Gulliver's Travel;

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Ummm and btw, I made a sketch. Here...

Not really cool, though. I've made it for the first time on Odosketch. And that is the first sketch. You wanna sketch? Just tell me your artworks! We could share together :)

Garuda Belum Kalah

2010-12-26T22:48:00.003+07:00

Fristly first, I don't like football that much. Bamby does. I came home from cinema, just watching the Gulliver's Travel. Well, we would actually watch Tron Legacy, but we had lacks of time, so finally we watched Gulliver's Travel. Children's tales, indeed.

I'm not talking about that movie this time. Back to the topic. I'm not a football fan. Never been. Bamby does. He was staying after we arrived home and it was six in the evening. We do the prayer and else. I ask him when the AFF will be aired on tv, and he said at seven o'clock. I turned on the laptop and logged in to some social networkings. Status-status dan tweet udah kayak mercon dan kembang api. Siap untuk meledak. Berkobar-kobar menyemangati Indonesia. Including me, of course.

Di stadion Bukit Jalil udah banyak banget supporter Malaysia dan Indonesia. Tapi supporter pertama yang saya liat itu supporter Indonesia yang merah semua menuhn satu per tiganya stadion. Nah baru abis itu ada kuning-kuning pada berbaris rapi di tepi stadion. Mh. Malay liat, eh salah, males liat maksudnya. I caught green laser, terus aku tanyain Bamby. Dia bilang itu sih udah biasa biar ngeganggu konsentrasi ke bolanya. CHEATTTT. Ok, sorry. Cheat.

Di babak pertama dan menit-menit pertama saya teriak-teriak gak bisa berhenti. Dari mulai pemain yang ditendang mukanya, jatoh, apalah, over gitu. That's it! Now I found the cooool part while watching football. I'm startin to love football, yknow :p

So anyway, hal pertama yang bikin kesel pengen jenggut-jenggut rambutnya Bamby (Well, I did actually :p) adalah udah seneng TimNas bikin gol pertama, and you know whaaaaaaattttt? IT'S OFFSIDE. I don't know what is offside! And I don't know what nonsense thing which makes it offside! ARGH.

Tiap liat timeline semuanya tentang offside. Dan laser. Dan hashtag. Dan timeline saya isinya ReTweet-an semuanya. Xixixi.

Laser udah sampe parah banget. Pertandingan malah sampe diberentiin. Pejabat-pejabat bola (Ini ngasal maap yak. Saya gak tau itu posisi mereka sebagai apa yang pake jas dan blazer item, so I call them that) sampe turun ke lapangan. Well, ga lapangan banget sih, pinggir-pinggirnya doang. Abis itu ada mercon lagi di lapangannya. Seumur-umur nonton sepak bola, se-gak sopan-gak sopannya supporter Indonesia, saya gak pernah liat ada mercon meledak di tengah-tengah pertandingan. Whatta shaaaame!

So I won't tell every single thing when I was watching AFF. You won't read either, right? Intinya Malaysia menang telak di first leg (itu yang gw baca hehe) kali ini dengan skor 3-0. Saya baca "Indonesia masih terkena kutukan tanggal 26". Yep.

Ya Allah berilah konsentrasi pada pemain TimNas nanti di tanggal 29. Ayoooo Garuda pasti bisa! Ini cuma faktor kurang konsentrasi dan beda kandang (secara tidak langsung gw mengatakan "Indonesia jago kandang"). Dan faktor laser? Bisa deh bisa. Salut juga buat para TwitNas yang sudah bikin lima trending topic buatan Indonesia. Apalagi hashtag #Malaysiacheatlaser bisa jadi nomer satu.

Intinya, jadikan permainan kali ini jadi pembelajaran buat para pemain dan coach TimNas. Juga buat para supporter Indonesia biar tambah semangat nanti waktu tanggal 29. Insya Allah menang. Jangan takabur dan do the best! Ayo TimNas, Garuda Belum Kalah!

God,

2010-12-24T20:58:00.000+07:00

I was like, "How if I die? What will you do?"

"I already love you. I don't know how I am supposed to be."

-BHK

Rest in Peace, Feby Muhamad Alkautsar

2010-12-24T19:33:00.001+07:00

Feby Muhamad Alkautsar. Tujuh belas tahun. Laki-laki. Baik hati.

Jum'at, 24 Desember 2010. Pukul 01:00 dini hari.

Caca tau Feby--atau biasa dipanggil Ebot--pertama kali waktu kelas tujuh di sekolah tingkat menengah. Kita sekelas, tapi cuma pas kelas tujuhnya aja. Banyak kenangan yang gak bisa diungkapkan di sini, tapi satu hal yang paling diingat adalah Ebot orangnya baik, ramah, dan akrab.

Tadi pagi sekitar jam enam atau setengah tujuh, Caca masih tidur. Tiba-tiba ibu bilang gini, "Ka, temen kaka yang sakit itu,"

"Kenapa?" Aku jawab.

"Meninggal."

Ebot udah lama sakit. Dia sekarang satu sekolah di STM sama Caca. Walau beda jurusan dan beda kelas. Dan jarang ketemu. Caca nyesel belum sempet nengok Ebot pas almarhum sakit. Ebot kena penyakit kanker tulang. Dan udah dirawat di rumah sakit selama empat bulan. Awalnya caca cuman bilang innalillahi wa innailaihi rajiun dan berucap istighfar beberapa kali. Tapi ya dasar kebo, Caca tidur lagi gara-gara masih belom percaya kalau yang meninggal itu teman seperjuangan SMP dan STM.

Tadi malam, Caca ngesms Bamby, "Aksygkm". Kenapa ya? Caca juga heran. Caca cuma ngerasa kayanya bakalan kehilangan sesuatu. Caca kira bakalan kehilangan Bamby, soalnya kayanya bentar lagi putus. Ternyata Ebot yang dipanggil Allah.

Abis itu, beberapa dari temen sekelas ngajakin buat ngelayat almarhum. Ebot dimakaminnya jam 10 pagi. Tapi kita ngelayat jam 1 siang. Nyampe sana............. nangis. Gak kuat. Seserenggukan. Kayak kehilangan seseorang yang paling berharga dalam hidup. Padahal Caca gak begitu kenal deket sama Ebot. Di sana udah sepi. Temen-temen Caca yang ga kenal Ebot juga sedih. Makamnya wangi banget. Banyak bunga ucapan turut berduka cita dari banyak pihak. Gak percaya kalau di bawah tanah merah itu, terbaring Ebot dengan kain kafan.

Yang Caca kasian itu pertama orang tuanya. Ibunya Ebot adalah Ibu Guru Bahasa Indonesia Caca di sekolah. Pasti sangat merasa kehilangan anaknya yang begitu rendah hati. Yang kedua, pacarnya. Pacarnya Ebot--Cia--berarti adalah cinta terakhirnya Ebot. Sampai-sampai Caca baca ada wall post di profile facebooknya Cia, katanya Ebot menggenggam tangan Cia sampai Ebot dipanggil Allah. Subhanallah.

Hari ini hari Jum'at, dan Ebot dipanggil Allah.

Caca sangat yakin Allah sayang banget sama Ebot. Mungkin Allah gak mau Ebot menderita terus-terusan karena sakit di rumah sakit. Allah kangen sama Ebot. Jadi Allah manggil Ebot hari Jum'at, hari yang paling mulia dari hari-hari lain. Mungkin para muslimin dan muslimah tau kemuliaan seseorang yang dipanggil di hari Jum'at, 'kan?

Allah sayang sama Ebot. Buktinya, banyak banget yang ngelayat. Bahkan temen-temen yang gak kenal juga ikut sedih banget.

Ya Allah, hapuskanlah dosa-dosa Ebot selama Ebot hidup. Biarkanlah amal dan pahalanya terus mengalir hingga almarhum terbujur kaku sekarang. Mudahkanlah proses tanya jawabnya bersama malaikat Munkar Nakir di alam kubur sana. Jadikanlah Ebot anak yang berbakti pada orang tuanya. Tempatkanlah Ebot di tempat yang paling mulia di sisi-Mu, ya Allah. Amin.

Ebot, selamat jalan, ya. Mungkin jasadmu sekarang udah gak ada. Tapi kenangan-kenangan yang Ebot berikan selama hidup masih kita kenang sampai nanti. Nanti kita ketemu, ya, di surga. Insya Allah. Caca ntar pengen liat Ebot main futsal lagi yang jago. Pengen liat Ebot barengan Cia lagi.

We love you, Ebot. Yang tenang ya :)

P.S: ini blog milik Ebot, isinya subhanallah sekali :)

that girl in the pink things

2010-12-22T18:46:00.000+07:00

Nothing to do? Digital coloring is the best thing you can do :D

P.S: If you want to use the picture above (yang mana gw yakin ga akan ada), ask me first and leave the credit. Thank you :>

Kak Bismalam, thanks a bunch!

2010-12-22T13:35:00.005+07:00

Sebelumnya, makasih buat visitor yang udah mau ngunjungin blog ini sampe ngelonjak ratingnya. Kenapa saya seneng banget? Let's see.
Tadi tuh lagi ngetwit kayak biasa. Ternyata follower nambah. Dan pada tau blog gw yang ini. Abis itu iseng-iseng deh gw buka blog terus liat stat visitor blognya. Hasilnya:

Dan setelah liat di sebelah kanannya, ada page source. Alias dari sumber mana page gw diload. Guess what?

Awalnya gak heran karena emang gw ngeshare link ke akun twitternya ka bisma. Tapi dipikir-pikir, kok bisa sampe 307 gitu kan aneh. Dengan bego gw buka profile twitternya ka bisma. Nyantai. Scrolling down. And then.....

MAN! Gw diem. Melongo. Melongin itu kenapa twit gw ada di timeline ka bisma. Ape nyasaaar gitu ya. Kedip-kedip, masih ga percaya. Langsung ngakak dan jerit-jeritan. Untungnya ga ada orang di rumah jadi rada-rada leluasa buat teriak. Berarti gw yang bego ini! GUE! Gw ngeshare tadi malem jam delapan. Sekarang udah keesokan harinya jam satu siang. Dan gw baru nyadar sekarang! HOW COME? Ah gila aaaaaaah gila demi apapun it made my day so much! Apalagi kalau ternyata ka bisma baca postingannya dulu sebelum ngeReTweet tweet itu. Masih gak percaya sumpah.

Oke, lebay sih emang. Tapi ini tuh kayak kalian Beliebers yang twitnya di RT sama JB. Atau Cody Simpson, atau Greyson Chance. Persis seperti itu!

Jadi semangat banget ngapdet postingan blog nih gara-gara @bismakarisma. Makasih yaaaa ka bisma! Makasih ya sm*shblast! Makasih yaaaa readers! Haum! ♥

I'm blasted by a sm*sh

2010-12-21T20:01:00.000+07:00

Ok, how am I supposed to start it? Err, I HEART SM*SH! Pertama kali tau dari twitter dan udah lama, sekitar Oktober November gitu. Diliat account twitternya, dipikir ini boyband korea kok ada di Indonesia ya? Kenapa setiap tweet nya pake Bahasa Indonesia? Dan setelah itu, begonya, gw gak peduli. Gak nyari-nyari di youtube, gak berusaha tau tentang mereka. Gak seperti minggu-minggu ini. Oke gw tau gw telat. Tapi gw sebenernya taaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuu dan gw nyesel gak nyari tau mereka pas awal-awal.

Akhirnya dicarilah di youtube. Dan pas liat MVnya....... Syit! NGAKAK SENGAKAK-NGAKAKNYA! Demi apapun itu boyband pertama yg gw tau dari Indonesia. Yang punya konsep mirip kaya boyband korea. Gw bacalah itu komen-komennya atas MV itu. Gosh, kalo gw yg ada di posisi SM*SH kali udah jeburin diri di comberan. Kejam, gak manusiawi, haha! Dan gw pikir itu MV kok sebentar bangeet ya, padahal setelah gw liat total durasinya ya standar-standar aja tiga menit lebih.

First thing, berarti mereka sukses bikin MV. Why? Ask yourself for it.

Gw puter lagi itu MV. Jujur, ngakak pas Rangga (yang gw belom tau namanya waktu itu) ngangkat ketek dan tersenyum manis. Itu siapa sih yang di tengah kok ganteng sendiri yaaa? Morgan ternyata. Tapi satu yang sekilas tuh biasa aja tapi nyantol ke hati (ceilah). Ternyata, Bisma Karisma saudara-saudara! I feel like I've known him before. But I realized sebenernya dia mirip seseorang di masa lalu gw. Curcol yuk mari.

Pas gw join fan pagenya di Facebook, kok malahan banyakan wall post anti sm*sh daripada sm*shblastnya ya? Dan satu hal yang mereka agung-agungkan: Plagiat.

Let's see. Lihat dengan mata yang jernih.

Menurut gw, ga ada yang bener-bener murni di dunia ini. Semua orang punya referensi dan inspirasi. Apa sebenernya arti plagiat? Menurut sumber ini, Plagiarisme atau sering disebut Plagiat adalah penjiplakan atau pengambilan karangan, pendapat dan sebagainya dari orang lain dan menjadikannya seolah karangan dan pendapat sendiri.

Dengan definisi di atas, menurut gw sm*sh gak bisa dibilang plagiator. Why? Bukan karena gw udah keracunan sm*sh atau apa. Tapi bersikaplah objektif. Udah jelas kan, plagiat itu adalah penjiplakan. Siapa yang pernah masuk Taman Kanak-Kanak? Pernah menjiplak gambar? Nah itu maksud gw. Jelasnya, penjiplakan itu sifatnya sama dan sangat sangat mirip. Entah garis, lingkaran, persegi, semuanya sama. Got it? Kalau mereka plagiator, coba deh kasih tau mana video yang mereka jiplak? Memang pasti ada satu dua yang mirip, dan gw mau ngejelasin kenapa dengan hal-hal yang mirip itu gw masih belom bisa bilang kalo mereka itu plagiator. Lihat lagi definisi di atas; "...menjadikannya seolah karangan dan pendapat sendiri.". Mereka baru bisa dibilang plagiat kalau mereka mengakui gerakan-gerakan yang mirip boyband korea itu adalah koreografi ciptaan mereka sendiri. Totally by themselves. Tapi tau gak sih, mereka mengakui loh kalau mereka terinspirasi dari boyband-boyband korea seperti misalnya SuJu atau DBSK. Nah.

Cukup dengan dua hal tadi dan berdasarkan definisi yang ada, gw bisa menyimpulkan bahwa mereka bukan plagiator. Mereka punya hak berkarya dan mereka punya hak mempunyai inspirasi. Boyband Indonesia bangkit lagi sekarang? So what? Kenapa harus ribut? Kita malah harus mendukung mereka biar mereka bisa berkreasi lebih dari yang sekarang dan go Internasional seperti boyband korea yang lain. Bukannya malah mencaci maki dan mengkritisi atas nama plagiat aja.

Semua orang punya hak untuk suka dan gak suka. Yang suka, dukung. Yang gak suka ya dukung juga (LOH). Ya maksudnya yang gak suka juga jangan malah ngejekin. Toh kalau mereka benar-benar plagiat (yang mana saya yakin bukan), itu kan urusan mereka dengan boyband korea yang lain?

Sementara ini ayolah kita rehat sejenak dengan lagu-lagu melayu yang sendu-sendu itu. Ada alternatif baru nih, yuk kita dukung.

Udah deh cukup. Jiwa fangirl gw lagi menggebu-gebu dan gak bisa berenti nulis kalo gak disetop hehe. Ayo kita ubah mind set dengan mata jernih. Indonesia bisa maju kalau anak negerinya juga mendukung. Hidup dunia musik Indonesia!

Salam cenat cenut!
I know you so well, sm*sh. I heart you. Bisma. HAUM! :3

HBD, dearest b-friend!

2010-12-06T13:53:00.000+07:00

Happy birthday, Bamby Hilvaaaaan :*

I've broken up

2010-11-04T22:54:00.001+07:00

Sorry for the uncountable days that I haven't post anything here. Tau gak, aku putus sama pacar aku. Udah 13 hari 5 jam 38 menit, kalau gak salah. Karena sekelas, jadi masih ketemu setiap hari. Masih sayang? Ya. Tapi untuk sekarang mungkin lebih baik untuk sendiri dulu. Kalaupun nanti tanggal enam pasti dia ngajak bareng lagi, keputusannya masih belum bisa diputuskan sampai sekarang. Aku masih bingung harus tetep megang prinsip, atau lanjut. Aku bingung. Dan untuk sekarang lagi gak mau dulu mikirin kayak gituan. Banyak tugas. Banyak hal-hal yang harus lebih didahulukan than a quality time with a bf.

Udah deh.

Mudik

2010-09-10T21:22:00.000+07:00

Besok mudik ke sukabumi. Pake bis. Dan kayaknya gak bakal update blog selama liburan karena sudah dipastikan gak ada koneksi internet di sana. Kalau beruntung ada tante yang bawa laptop dan modem. Tapi bakalan bawa dslr kok, jadi pulang-pulang udah banyak foto gitu deh hehe. Ada yang mau berangkat mudik? Atau malah ada yang udah pulang?

Doain ya semoga selamat sampai tujuan dan gak pake acara mabok segala. Curhat dikit, aku phobia kalo ngeliat gantungan yang digantung di kendaraan. Gak gantungan aja sih, kayak misalnya pewangi ruangan yang digantung, gantungan lafadz Allah, kresek yang digantung di stang motor, bahkan kalau misalnya naro tas di bagasi atas dan talinya gak ikutan masuk, jadilah goyang-goyang. Sumpah aneh banget kenapa bisa kayak gini. Aku juga gak tau itu namanya phobia apaan. Phobia apa ya? Kalo ada yang tau mohon kasih tau ya.

Oke deh, ditunggu doanya ya teman-temanku yang baik yang ganteng yang cantik yang imut yang soleh solehah ting ting.

Dadah, selamat mudik ;)

take care, daddy

2010-09-10T10:57:00.001+07:00

Horeeee happy ied mubarak ya semua. Lebaran tahun ini nggak ada ayahanda. Jadi yang ada di rumah cuma three angels aja gitu. Beliau lagi kerja di negara tetangga dan belum bisa pulang tahun ini. Memang gak begitu deket sih. Ngobrol juga jarang. Tapi kalau gak ada tuh kayaknya kuraaang gitu ya. Kayak gak afdol. Sehat-sehat ya pa di sana. We love you :')

Lol I feel like six :p

Jangan dilihat

2010-09-09T23:01:00.002+07:00

Besok lebaraaaaaan!

Dan jam segini gue belom tidur. Yang lain udah pada tidur. Tinggal gue sendiri uhu uhu. Oh ya terima kasih teruntuk Dati yang kusayang karena sudah mengambil hikmah dan manfaat dari blog sampah ini. Lebay.

Mau oleh-oleh sebelum shalat ied? Nih.

Okedeh yang ini skip. Maaf bikin mual malem-malem .__.

Ini keripik apa ya lupa lagi kan namanya, gue tiba-tiba amnesia. Setoples gede. Gendut gendut deh.

Dan sebotol pulpy orange (sumpah ga penting)

Lah bukunya kebawa. Dia yang mintaaaa!

Gelap ya? Emang cuma layar laptop doang yang nyala. Lampu-lampu udah pada dimatiin. Naas.

Ini dia ciri siswi-stm-yang-gak-ada-kerjaan-tapi-sebenernya-banyak-PR. Udah deh. Alasan gue masang foto ini? Bosen. Iseng. Ga ada temen. Huhu *ngais-ngais tanah*

.... hari ini tidur di kursi lagi. Trims.

Happy Ied Mubarak ♥

2010-09-09T19:53:00.006+07:00

Jadi, kalau ada kata-kata yang nggak berkenan yang pernah saya post di sini, mohon dimaafkan ya. Karena sesungguhnya kesempurnaan hanya milik Allah swt dan kesalahan hanya milik Dorce. Kalau ada informasi-informasi yang menyesatkan dari blog ini, mohon diampuni. Karena berarti saya belum tahu mana yang benar saat itu. Kalau ada postingan yang menyinggung, mohon dimaklumi. Karena sebenernya saya gak niat nyinggung.

Anyway, ada yang udah mudik? Atau masih berencana untuk mudik setelah lebaran? Kalau saya mudiknya hari kedua setelah lebaran. Jadi shalat Ied di Cimahi deh. Tujuannya adalah kampung halaman, Sukabumi. Kalian berencana mudik kemana?

Semoga nanti pada saat keberangkatan, maupun pulang mudik, kita dikasih kemudahan sama Allah swt dan selamat samapai tujuan. Dan gak mabok. Buat yang suka mabok ~~kaya saya~~, jangan lupa sediain obat anti mabok itu loh terus sama kayu putih. Saran saya kalau lagi di perjalanan biar gak mabok, jangan pernah makan cokelat dan baca buku di perjalanan.

Trust me, it works. Kaya iklan L-Men kan jadinya.

Oke deh, selamat liburan untuk semuanya. Salam buat keluarga di sana ya ;;)

Wild Child (2008)

2010-09-09T06:48:00.002+07:00

Title: Wild Child
Directed by: Nick Moore
Written by: Lucky Dahl
Produced by: Tim Bevan, Eric Fellner, Diana Phillips

Udah lama banget ya gak review. Nah sekarang aku mau review soal film ini. Has any of you watched this? It was fantastic. Hilarious, though. Jadi ceritanya ada anak remaja dari Amerika gitu--Poppy Moore (Emma Roberts)--yang tinggal di LA. Dia kerjaannya meracau terus, sampe barang-barang ibu tirinya ia kasih semua ke temen-temennya. Jadilah dia dilempar ke asrama di Inggris gitu. Eh btw ini asrama beneran kayak imajinasi aku waktu baca buku Mallory Towers-nya Enid Blyton. Suer! Dan karakter antagonisnya juga pas banget deh. Seragamnya, terus kamarnya. Oke, balik lagi ke topik. Ribet kan kalo anak Amrik disuruh sekolah di Inggris? Iyalah, peraturannya aja beda. Tata kramanya juga. Jadi hari-hari pertama dia di sana dia paling beda banget dari yang lain.

Hiya beda banget kan, seragamnya aja udah beda. Pokonya paling fashionable di sono. Rok sekolahnya malah dijadiin high-waisted skirt. Jas almamaternya juga ampun deh. Terus pake high heels sendiri. Slang banget pokonya. Mereka berempat itu temen sekamarnya Poppy, yang akhirnya jadi sahabatnya dia. Kalo di poster filmnya kan ada cewek yang paling depan setelah Poppy (yang lagi lipat tangan), nah dia musuhnya.

Film ini nyeritain tentang gimana dia bisa survive dan membiasakan diri di lingkungan yang baru, dan teman yang baru. Dan musuh yang baru. Kocak banget liat tingkah bocah limaan ini, tapi ada adegan mengharukan juga. Eh ada Alex Pettyfer B-) Ayo nonton, gak bakalan nyesel deh! Aku aja masih inget jalan ceritanya padahal terakhir nonton tiga bulan yang lalu (terus? .___.)

Indohogwarts

2010-09-08T14:49:00.001+07:00

Welcome, welcome, everyone, to indohogwarts. A place that you might love. A place that you can learn how to do a spell, magic, and hex someone you hate. Ha. Jadi siapa di sini yang punya chara di indohogwarts? I have, too. A couple of months ago. Haha sudah saya terlantarkan chara saya bernama Belvina C. Riverbank itu. Dan niat buat bikin chara baru lagi yang lebih cantik, jahil, licik, jahanam, oke cukup. Nanti tanggal 26 September 2010, indohogwarts bakalan buka registrasi buat term baru. Saran saya sih ya, persiapkan chara kamu dari sekarang biar nanti gak repot-repot. Terus harus bangun pagi-pagi biar gak kehabisan tempat di sono. Chara saya? Eits masih rahasia. Pokoknya cantik kayak PM-nya *plak*

Wondering what is that stuff?

Jadi, website itu adalah mainan RPG, dimana kita bisa ngerasain jadi siswa siswi Hogwarts beneran. Ada Albus Dumbledore, Minerva McGonnagal, sama Severus Snape juga. Emang beneran rame, saya juga udah coba. Cuma terlantar. Gara-gara sekolah yang sibuk. Dan pelajaran-pelajarannya asing soalnya PM-nya juga muggle. Jadi curhat. Ya pokonya kita bisa berinteraksi sama siswa siswi Hogwarts di situ juga. Tapi bukan kayak ragnarok, atau game online gitu. Ini basicnya nulis. Eh jangan khawatir buat yang gak bisa nulis. Di situ bukan cuma buat orang-orang yang pinter nulis kok. Malah lama kelamaan yang asalnya ga bisa, jadi bisa. Soalnya di sana mau gak mau juga tata cara penulisan kita dilatih. Nah nah, siapa yang cinta Harry Potter? Boleh datang ke Indohogwarts sekarang buat liat-liat dulu. Nanti tanggal 26 jangan lupa daftar ya. Saya juga mau kok hehe. Sampai jumpa di sana ya! ~~ngincer asrama Slytherin~~ :p

award

2010-09-08T14:24:00.002+07:00

Yay, dapet award dari Chacan!

rule pertamanya disuruh bagiin ke tujuh orang, jadi aku bagiin ke Chacan (lagi), Kak kiki, Kak paul, Riri, Kak Viandira, Ayul, dan yang terakhir buat kamu yang baru aja visit blog ini, just feel free to grab it :D

rule yang kedua, jawab pertanyaan ini; "Apa arti sahabat menurut kamu?"

Oke, menurut aku sahabat adalah seseorang yang bisa kita jadiin sandaran dan pegangan kalau kita lagi jatuh. Adalah seseorang yang ngasih semangat kalau kita lagi down, dan bukan malah membeberkan kalau kita enggak bisa. Adalah seseorang yang kalau kita senang, dia ikut senang; terus kalau lagi sedih, bisa ngasih solusi :)

I FUCKING DON'T REALLY WANT THIS THING HAPPENS!

2010-09-06T12:54:00.000+07:00

It's just out of control. I know which is the right one. I've been drinking a good doctrine. And I know that I have to move on. Move on, miss, move on! I somewhat can't. But I WANT TO. I want to end this thing. And move on. And done the doctrine. And being me. And do the right choice. And being the fucking myself. And do the fucking right choice.

And break a heart.

Not mine, though.

I always wonder,

2010-09-05T22:03:00.001+07:00

Why it has to be you?

2010-09-04T22:52:00.000+07:00

I see you. No, I saw you.

I love you. No, I loved you.

I beg on you. No, I begged on you.

I smile to you. No, I smiled to you.

You see me. No, you never saw me.

You love me. Not. Yes, you love me not.

You make me high. No, you made me high.

You smile to me. No, You smiled to me.

She loves you. Yes, she does.

And you do too.

She has changed your way.

Even if you actually do know which is the right one.

Or, even not?

She grabs you. Your hand.

And you follow her.

She borrows you. For a period that I don't even know.

And you don't even know too.

She steals you. From me.

And you don't mind.

Besides, she is beautiful, right?

She is way better than me.

So you don't even mind.

She still stays beside you.

No, I'm wrong.

You stay beside her.

Well then, if you don't mind

If you don't mind spend your lifetime with her

If you don't mind give you smile to her

If you don't mind share your laughter with her

Then I will not mind too

Then I do not mind too

Have a good time, okay?

I hate you :)

2010-09-04T11:09:00.000+07:00

AH NOW I'M REALLY FELT GUILTY. SO MUCH! I've neglected this for so long. Too long! It was like three or four months ago, perhaps? No happy fasting greeting, no schooldays stories here, no World Cup. Blah. It's just trashy. I have loads of things to do! More than ever. So I do more active on twitter, lately. I'm not asking you to follow mine, really. But just in case that perhaps someday you missed me, I'll tell my twitter account to follow, though. Hee hee. You can just visit this link: http://twitter.com/Chachaaaw. Although i actually don't think there will be any following request.

Big thanks to everyone who was visiting my blog. So some of you might think that I'm interested at photography. I can say, yes. I really am interested way too much about it. Just as much as books! Btw Does any of you love Harry Potter stories? I do too. Just telling you that because JKR has finished her series of masterpiece, you could check out Harry Potter fan fiction. A little bit promotion again (hehe) you should check out my account at fanfiction.net too. I write Draco/Hermione stories. This is the link: http://fanfiction.net/~Cherrrrrrypie. Enjoy.

So I actually don't have any subjects here. Beside, happy fasting everybody! There are just five days more to go, sadly :( I always wait Ramadhan to come, but it went so fast. And Ied Mubarak is coming! Be a better person than last year, everyone. May Allah bless us in every way we've chosen. Allahu akbar! :D

2010-08-01T19:06:00.000+07:00

Bye holiday. Welcome back, friends!

2010-07-11T18:44:00.000+07:00

Oh my God, it has been so long since I posted the latest post! How are you? How's your holiday? I saw five scribbles on my latest post, and I thought it was all your holiday plans. But guess what, it's just some chinese unimportant link! You could see them on my post below :(

And so, after I got my report, I spend two days camping with Barbara. So bloody fun! I forgot every detail things of those days so I think I won't tell you how was our camping. I bring my camera, of course. Till the battery died and the memory fulfilled! It's about six hundred photos, tsk. Evan got an accident when we were making our tents. And the next day we were hiking to the waterfall. Ratna even fell so many times LOL! After those tiring days, I have no activites at all. Just stay at home, sometimes turn on the PC, but occasionaly working with my handphone. My PC even crashed for a while. It made me couldn't post here. But then again yesterday my auntie's family came along my home. She brought herself (of course), her husband, and her three daughters; Reyhana, Cia, and Rissa. So last night we went to Kampung Daun, you know that place? It was like a village, yes, little village which is actually a restaurant, a big big big big big restaurant. We had some fun there. Sadly they were going home this morning. Jadi sebenernya gue ga jadi liburan ke Jakarta, because Mother had many job lately. It wasn't a long holiday, after all. Jadi kayaknya ke sana kalau kita libur lebaran aja. Gak lama, 'kan? Puasa tinggal satu bulan lagi hayooooo buat cewek siapa yang belum bayar puasa yang kemarin?

Gak kerasa banget besok harus udah masuk lagi. But all of we had a new grade! That's a good point. Fight for this term! Gak tau kenapa tahun ajaran baru sekarang jadi lebih semangat dari tahun-tahun kemarin. Mungkin karena faktor ketegangan perebutan rangking kemarin kali ya. Ayo, bloggers, semangat untuk besok! Ah, gak kerasa udah naik kelas dua lagi. Tahun depan naik kelas tiga, lalu UN, lalu naik kelas empat, terus mulai PKL. Habis PKL entah mau lanjut kuliah ambil DKV, atau mungkin malah langsung kerja. and then we'll face the real world. Dimana kita gak boleh bergantung lagi sama orang tua. Malu dong. So I'd better spend my school life slowly with all of the joy!

Anyway, sudah packing buku lama dan ngebenahin meja belajar belum? Udah sampulin buku baru? Buat tahun ini aku pake sampul kertas kado biar warna-warni dan bikin gak jenuh belajar kayak sampul coklat. How about you? Good luck for the next term, everybody! Live our life with joy and happiness ♥

Loves,

Chacha ;)

how's your report? i've gotten mine

2010-06-25T16:17:00.003+07:00

Hey everyone, want to know a secret? God never sleeps. That's how our wishes come true. The reason why God knows every single thing we thought, every single thing we wished for. By the way, how's your report? I hope yours' the best God has given for you. And a bunch of thanks for the du'a! I got the #1 rank again! It's dedicated to Allah Subhanahu Wata'ala, my super mother, beloved father, my little sister, a whole big family, and you guys all. I was nervous if I lose my rank, because I'm not studying that maximal this semester. But, really, God gave me a chance. I swear I'll keep His chance and do my maximum strength next semester. I got a plan for the holiday too. I wanna visit some ~~bitches~~ beaches, and go to the Jakarta Fair (because I'll spend my holiday there) then buy some camera toys! I'll post my holiday trip here as soon as I've reached Jakarta. And how about your holiday plan? Take an adventure, or visit some malls? Just share with me, I'll love it!

fortunately, I know Your place

2010-06-24T21:11:00.002+07:00

God, I know You're up there, that's why I should thank You more because You're the one who controls me. God, I know You're everywhere, that's why I should be ashamed because You know every single thing that I don't even know it does exist. Dear God, I know You're beside me, that's why I should love You more because You're the one who knows my heart and gives the best for me, and loving me no matter what ♥

- Mirdza Annisa

God, help me.

2010-06-24T08:37:00.001+07:00

God, I'm not mentally that ready. I can't face it by myself. I just wanna skip tomorrow and smell the holiday air early. Help me.

2010-06-24T08:28:00.000+07:00

God, I have a problem.

It's me.

2010-06-23T23:48:00.002+07:00

Please pray for me!

2010-06-23T22:56:00.000+07:00

Bloggers, aku selalu stress kalau mau dibagi rapot nih. Semester kemarin aku dapat rangking 1. Aku pingin banget mempertahankan rangking itu, jadi please pray for me. Aku ngga mau bikin orang tua aku kecewa. Aku tau rangking bukan segala-galanya, tapi bukankah ngga adil kalau yang dapet rangking adalah orang yang menggunakan cara yang ngga halal?

Please, please, doain ya bloggers semoga nilai di rapotku bagus dan bisa mempertahankan rangking. Thanks a lot! I love you guys so much :D

six photography tips

2010-06-19T23:55:00.000+07:00

I have no activity this Saturday Night and well, I fight with my bf, so I made this post. This is six photography tips originally by me. Or not photography tips at all, but I don't know what things I've made below, so just read 'em. They might be helpful <3

1. Bring your camera every time.

Terkadang kalau kita lagi bawa kamera, kita malah gak bisa dapet momen yang kita pingin. Dan sering banget kalau kita lagi nggak bawa, serasa banyak banget objek dan momen yang bisa kita jepret. You couldn't get a moment every time, so always bring your camera, whatever it was. Pocket camera, DSLR, SLR, or else.

2. Don't wait for a moment.
Kalau anda pikir suatu momen adalah dimana ketika terjadi hal-hal yang spesial dan jauh dari keadaan sehari-hari, then you're wrong. Every single thing is a moment. Gunakan objek yang ada sebagai momen, nggak harus nunggu ada acara spesial baru kita jepret.

3. Bring your camera without its bag.
Menurut saya, salah satu faktor yang menghambat kita mengambil gambar adalah tas kamera. Kalau udah ambil gambar dan masukin kameranya ke tas, dengan alasan safety. Tapi kadang kalau ada objek yang bagus kita suka males ambil gambarnya. Kenapa? Karena kita harus buka tas kamera lagi dan setelah ambil gambar itu kita harus memasukannya lagi ke tas. Apa gak ribet?

4. Hunting without vehicle is better.
Sering kita lewatkan objek-objek yang bagus hanya karena kita naik kendaraan dan objeknya udah kelewat jauh. dan bahkan kalau saya saking udah nyamannya naik kendaraan, walaupun ada objek yang bagus kadang selalu males turun kendaraan itu. Jadi sekalian aja nggak usah pakai kendaraan. Atau kalau mau, parkir kendaraan itu di satu lokasi, terus kita hunting di sekitar lokasi itu.

5. Wear your most comfortable clothes.
Walaupun cuma pakaian, tapi menurut saya ini salah satu faktor yang paling penting saat kita lagi hunting. Don't you ever wear the oh-so-fashionable clothes which are not give you the comfort. Percuma kalau gaya tapi kaki lecet dan lain-lain.

6. Be yourself.
This is the most important thing when you take a picture. Jangan urusin teori tentang shutter speed dan diafragma, karena mengambil gambar itu bukan berdasarkan teori tapi dengan hati. Jangan ambil angle gambar yang pasaran, jangan ambil objek gambar yang pasaran, dan jangan malu untuk berekspresi. Kalau iya kamu harus jongkok-jongkok untuk dapet angle yang bagus, just do it! No need to be ashamed, because you'll get your very own satisfaction when you had done what you wanna do before.

So yeah, keep taking loads of great shoot, guys. Salam jepret! :)

God is Fair

2010-06-18T22:25:00.001+07:00

A thing that still bothering my mind is, when we fail at something and then the person who beats me was cheating and do everything for reach what I've reached. I'll understand if they done it by the right way, it means that my job has declined and I have to increasing them sooner. But, what are you gonna do if they were cheating?

In this case, rank.

Nggak adil sama sekali kalau mereka bisa menempati posisi aku selama ini, with a totally pathetic way. Dengan cara membuat tulisan-tulisan kecil pada waktu ujian kemarin, and voila they got an amazing score. Perfectly better than me. Dan guru, they don't know any of this cheating way. Mereka cuma bisa berpikir kalau orang-orang curang adalah orang yang benar-benar pintar, which had done the job nicely, which were listening at them seriously, which were not busy with their own boy/girlfriend. It's totally bullshit. They don't know any of their damn cheat!

Kalau mereka benar-benar bisa menempati posisi aku selama ini, how come? I did stay up till the midnight, I did wake up at four o'clock, I did the right way. I'm not writing the eenie meenie smallie text that you could place it under your worksheet. But if their fucking way done better than me, is it fair if they got the position?

Mungkin untuk beberapa orang, hal ini gak begitu penting. But not with me. Seharusnya aku masih kelas tiga SMP sekarang, bukan kelas satu SMA. Menurutku, ini salah satu faktor yang bikin aku jadi orang yang ambisius dan perfeksionis. Dari kecil, aku udah diajarin kalau ilmu itu nomer satu. And in the other side, hal itu bikin aku sukses dalam hal ranking sampai sekarang. aku orang yang gak mau kalah. Essentially, I'm not mentally ready if my rank goes down.

Tapi kalau dipikir-pikir, untuk apa mikirin ranking yang sebenarnya bisa dengan mudah dibeli siapa aja? God is fair and it is. Kalau mereka dengan cara yang curang bisa dengan gampang mengambil posisi itu dan kita dengan cara yang halal bisa merosot, apa Tuhan diam? Remember, God never sleeps. Mungkin mereka bisa mengambil posisi itu tapi apakah mereka benar-benar mengerti dengan apa yang mereka kerjakan dengan curang itu? Jadi yang terpenting di sini sebenarnya bukan kedudukan ranking, karena ranking bisa dibeli. Tapi masalah pemahaman, you have to repeat the whole one year to get it.

And God is fair, let's see who's gonna be truly success in the next year. Hey cheaters, my God is bigger than your cheating paper :)

life seems too fast, i thought i was playin at kindergarten yesterday.

2010-06-17T21:17:00.001+07:00

I attended the graduation of the 4th class about a week ago, and I'm the photographer. They are no longer being a student anymore, well, goodbye seniors, welcome to the real world. I think I still have the other fun seniors, the third grade. But yes, they'll go PKL and I only have the second grade seniors! It's sad remember all of the seniors should be gone soon. I mean, they're not only seniors. I've considered them as my own brother and sister.

And then I'll be gone to the next grade. And the second grade will be gone to their third grade.

And then I'll up to the third grade, as the third grade will be gone PKL.

And then me, who was still playing in the kindergarten yesterday, who was just swinging at the swing an hour ago, should go PKL.

Does the time go faster, or it was just me who growing up as the time goes on?

And finally, I will become a 18 years old girl which has to be ready facing the real world. Real world.

Wish me luck.

Blue

2010-06-12T22:06:00.000+07:00

Well, I don't really like blue. Or a thing that colored blue. And I'm not feeling blue, either. Just wanna refreshing my mind, I got a lot of problems this month. Hopefully done sooner. Sorry for everything, and thanks. I love you, bloggers. Pray for me, please? :)

Hello world.

2010-06-10T14:53:00.001+07:00

Hey I've been neglecting Polaroid for awhile. I still have a lot of exams, anyway. And a thing that I haven't told you, I attended Broadcast Reward 9! I know that was held a loooong time ago, but still exciting to tell to.

Preparation first :)

We had a break

Bamby and Me

This is how crazy we are when we were performing

Our symbol for Barbara. Barbara Undergroundddddd!!

And I got an award from Ara. Thanks :)

the rules:

1. Thank and link the person that gave you the award.

2. Pass this award to 15 bloggers you’ve recently discovered and think are fantastic
3. Contact said Blogs and let them know they’ve won the award
4. State 7 things about yourself.

7 things about my self

Friendly
Funny
Lazy
Pretty (Hhh I know that's extremely stupid)
Clever
Freak
Pessimistic

And I'll give this award to everyone who sees my blog. Feel free to take it :D

So yeah, still have many exams till next week. I'm posting because we had a break till Sunday. Errr well, good luck, everyone! Hope we get a high mark for every subjects :)

Untuk Sahabat yang Semangatnya Tak Akan Pernah Habis

2010-05-28T10:06:00.000+07:00

Never complain when you had a trouble, no matter how much the problem is.

But I do, I often. Just don"t do that anymore. It won't change or solving the problem.

It inspired by a friend. She wears a hijab, she is a clever girl, she joins an organisation named PASUS and Nihongo Kurabu. I don't intend to show her disgrace but this is a real story about her spirit, about how could she smiles with a thousand problems hang on her head, about how could she never complain about anything in this world.

Jurusan kita mau ngadain acara Panasonic Award kecil-kecilan, called Broadcast Reward. Just like another Award, we got to wear a formal clothes. This story starts when I asked her, Broadcast Reward jadi kan? She answered that she doesn't have a dress yet. I frowned, itu udah H-2 sebelum acara dan dia belum dapet dress. Well however I try my best to search everything she needed for BR. She thanked and said that kalian gak perlu repot-repot. Aku bilang pokoknya Barbara harus ikut semua. Dia diem. My mom was ill, she said. Tapi biasanya kalau anak remaja perempuan lain pasti mengeluh kalau dapet cobaan seperti itu, tapi ngga buat di, dia senyum. Mungkin hal ini bukan hal yang sangat berat buat anak remaja yang punya rezeki banyak, yang punya orang tua yang lengkap dan kakak-kakak yang bisa membantu. Mungkin ngga berat buat anak remaja yang punya saudara dekat dari rumah.

Tapi tau ngga, anak perempuan itu baru ditinggal bapaknya tiga tahun yang lalu. Yes, she has two borther and sister. Tapi kakak pertamanya udah meninggal dan kakaknya yang satu lagi tinggal di luar negeri. Jadi yang tersisa di rumah berpetaknya itu tinggal ibunya, dan dia sendiri.

Kemarin dia gak masuk. Alasannya karena lagi jagain ibunya di rumah sakit. Sms-smsnya sama sekali gak ada kata mengeluh. She even had time to insert a smile on her sms. She told us that she won't come to the Broadcast Reward. Kita akhirnya patungan untuk dia biar mamanya cepat sembuh. Kita sms terus dia ada dimana, ternyata dia lagi pergi ke Bandung untuk ngurusin surat-surat kesehatan ibunya. Bayangin, anak remaja yang lagi masa-masanya seneng-seneng dan cari ilmu buat ke sekolah, harus ngurusin surat-surat ibunya sampai ke Bandung segala. Itupun sendirian.

Dua dari kita akhirnya pergi ke Rumah Sakit tempat ibunya dirawat inap. Once fitted when she just returned from Bandung. It was 1 o'clock in the afternoon. She, as always, gave her wide smile to Ratna and Lauvrien, and said that they don't actually to do this.

Mereka masuk ke kamar rumah sakit, walaupun itu sebenarnya belum jam besuk.

Ibunya tertidur di atas kasur. Kurus. Kayak cuman tulang yang dibungkus kulit. Bahkan katanya waktu ibunya mau diambil darah, prosesnya susah banget karena saking kurusnya. Jarum infusnya udah nggak ada di tangan ibunya. Dia yang ngeliat itu langsung seneng bukan main, "Wah jarum infusnya udah ngga ada! Berarti ibu boleh pulang besok! Asik!"

Akhirnya Ratna dan Lauvrien ngobrol sama dia. Mereka ngsihin dua bungkus ayam bakar ke dia, yang lagi-lagi ditolak karena ngerepotin. Dipaksa, akhirnya mau. Nggak sengaja tangan santi nyenggol tangan ibunya, dan ibunya bangun.

Ibunya bangun lalu cerita bahwa jarumnya udah ngga ada itu karena tadi susternya nyabut jarum itu pukul 11 dan sampai sekarang, pukul 2 siang, jarumnya belum juga dipasang lagi. Karena apa? Bukan karena ibunya udah sembuh dan boleh pulang besok, tapi karena jarumnya harus ditebus.

Dia langsung berdiri, kebingungan, terus keluar kamar. Setelah lama, dia balik lagi bawa jarum ditangannya yang langusng dipasangin ke tangan ibunya. Bukan, itu bukan jarum yang ia tebus di rumah sakit. Jarum itu dia beli sendiri di luar. Barusan.

Mereka tanya, kenapa sodaranya nggak bantu. Dia jawab, mereka udah bantu banyak hal, gak enak kalau sekarang ngerepotin mereka lagi. Senyum.

"Lauvrien, liat deh tadinya aku udah mau siap-siap ke sekolah, tuh liat aku bawa tas," dia nunjuk ke tas item besarnya yang isinya lengkap sama buku pelajaran hari itu, dia ketawa. Bahkan waktu itu Dodo pernah lihat dia lagi naik angkot dan makan pop mie di angkot gara-gara semaleman ngejagain ibunya di rumah sakit.

Akhirnya mereka mutusin buat balik lagi ke sekolah, karena kalau kelamaan malah ngeganggu. Lauvrien ngasihin uang yang udah kita kumpulin. Nolak. Paksa. Mereka Keluar.

Pernah kebayang ngga, seorang anak perempuan 15 tahun yang ibunya udah tua renta lagi sakit dan gak punya biaya, sedangkan dia yang harus nyari uang sendiri dan berusaha ngurusin semuanya biar ibunya sembuh masih bisa senyum setiap hari dan tertawa walaupun setumpuk masalah dia yang tanggung sendiri.

Jujur, kalau saya pribadi, saya malu sama diri saya sendiri.

Sahabat, kamu tetap menjadi anggota di keluarga kita, keluarga Barbara. Kita bakal selalu ada di sisi kamu, seberat apapun masalah yang kamu hadapi. Terus semangat ya, Gokudera Hayato! Semoga ibumu lekas sembuh, biar kamu bisa gabung lagi sama kita di kelas :)

*Gokudera Hayato: dia suka anime jadi facebooknya dia namain itu hihi

15 Things Guys Don't Know About Girls

2010-05-23T15:31:00.003+07:00

Never been this uncreative before. I don't know what thing I'm supposed to post. I have no idea at all, so when I visit Cassandra Niki's blog, I read some posts and finally I post this.

1) We want you to still say we look beautiful even if we're covered in mud.

2) We think your collection of porn is pathetic and immature.

3) We love it when you hold our hand in public.

4) Don't use sex as an apology, we will still hate you afterwards.

5) Of course, we think about you all the time. Even when we're extremely upset with you, we still expect you to call.

6) Make fun of our clothes........prepare to die.

7) We love it when you make us laugh, but knowing that WE CAN MAKE YOU LAUGH is the best feeling in the world.

8) When we tease you, tease us back and make us laugh.

9) Please don't play video games while you're with us.

10) We are planners. We plan things. But try to surprise us.

11) Sorry, but we might leave you for Johnny Depp.

12) We remember everything, so minimize the possibility of doing anything stupid.

13) Anything you say or do with another girl that you don't want us to know about is considered cheating.

14) When we cry, don't ask us to stop. Hug us and let us cry all over your shoulder.

15) Stop acting so smart, ask for our advice. Trust us.

--Cassandra Niki

Photography means Love

2010-05-23T15:12:00.000+07:00

dear myself,

2010-05-16T14:28:00.003+07:00

this life is not always about you, so stop talking about yourself.

pathetic follower

2010-05-15T17:38:00.000+07:00

I hate when someone copies my style, with or without my permission. I was like thinking that they have no their own self identity. It's better if they could dressed better than my style which they had copied. But it's totally not and it more and more makes my mood bad. I mean, okay they have their right to wear every clothes that they're want to. But puhlease, can't you just make your own style and not being another me? Are you my fans, or what? Or just the other girls that don't know how to dress well and desperately want to be me and then without my permission you wear every single thing I wear? I sometimes wanna scream onto your face, telling that you copy my style and I fucking damn hate that! You're pathetic, bitch!

P.S: Tagboard is not working nowadays, huh? Well then if you wanna leave your mark, just comment on my post. Thank you :)

Cobra Starship

2010-05-14T20:34:00.000+07:00

and then I'm officialy becoming a fan of Cobra Starship.

a so called tiring week

2010-05-07T21:42:00.001+07:00

GROARRRR pulang telat terus gara-gara bikin Film Animasi Stop Motion buat lomba di IKJ. Masalahnya adalah I'm a photographer, so I can't just leave the team. Mudah-mudahan besok hari terakhir shooting, dan kalau tinggal ngedit ya aku sih pulang aja gak usah mikirin editor. Abis ini aja aku harus masukin photos that I've taken before. Kapan habisnya ya Allah, rasa-rasanya badan udah nggak mendukung lagi untuk beraktivitas minggu ini. Belum lagi tanggal 23 bakalan ada Broadcast Reward dan aku belum dapet gaun buat dipakainya. Nyari gaun dimana yang bisa pakai jilbab? Dan kemarin Lala ulang tahun, plus our one month anniversary. Pasti deh tanggal 6 itu bertepatan sama ulang tahun orang-orang terdekat kita. Bamby beliin aku jaket baseball yang warnanya item putih, padahal kan gak usah ntar aja. Lala malah minta diinstallin The Sims 2 di macbook. Pas aku tanyain katanya gak ada. Harusnya beli Sony VAIO aja biar Sistem Operasinya bisa pakai Windows, bukan Macintosh, jadi kan susah nyari CD software bajakannya hehe. Abis kalo beli yang orisinil mahal banget ah. Tadi juga pada bawa laptop di kelas, lagi pada nginstall The Sims 2. Apalagi The Sims 2 University waaah pingin banget ih. Mau diisntall di PC tapi PC masih jadul banget, belum DVD masih VCD, jadi gak bisa install. Paling besok di-copy dulu ke flashdisk baru diinstall di PC. Kalo bukan akunya yang mau main juga gak akan sampe aku bela-belain hahaha. Ih ya Allah, capek banget hari ini. Sekarang udah ngebet banget pengen tidur, biasanya masih bisa melek sampe jam 11. I wanna sleep early and wake up lately, Mom! Please, School, make something busy so I can sleep all day on my bed without those bloody books :'(

Well, nite walkers.

With a tired face and a will to sleep early,

Chacha

Dear best friend,

2010-05-04T20:35:00.009+07:00

I don't know how to start this, but it started when a box chat turned blue and I see the girl's name on that. I'm totally missing her. A lot. Too much. Never ends. I remember our first meeting at our seventh grade at that building. And then we were always being best friends for about three years, because we shared the same class three times in a row. Well then, I won't talk too much about our first met or kind of that. I'll share about a lot of things that I've learned and she has given to me, indirectly.

She has no profile picture on her Facebook account. No wonder, she is a geek. And we haven't met for almost a year, after those three years we've shared together.

I remember her laugh, I'm still remember which chord that she always uses when she is laughing. I remember when she mocked at herself and then we laugh together. I remember what kind of jokes she always uses to make me laugh out loud as much till i got a stomach ache. Dear best friend, I miss your laugh so much that made me so grateful.

She is not a girl that envy so much. People happy, she turns happy. People got a good score, she claps her hands and shakes their hands. People got a better rank, she draws her smile, her big smile, on her face. God, shame on me, I'm not that kind of person. I envy too much. She never mocks someone who has a lower grade or score, she even makes them laugh and forget about their bloody score.

I can't defeat her, and I won't. Her brain is too much higher than me, than everyone in class. I copy the others homeworks, she doesn't. I do my homework at school, she doesn't... umm well, sometimes hehe but I still worse. I ask friends when we had an exam, she doesn't. She'd rather do the exam by herself, and proud for whatever score she had by herself. But she never refuses when someone asking her when we had an exam. She is kind.

She never complains about everything. Even the worst thing happens.

I smile at the camera, she smiles, but not that often. She even doesn't have a profile picture, or her images capture in her handphone. She doesn't care about it. There're even more her cats' pictures than herself. I do wear a zebra print and leather jacket, but she just wears a tee shirt and a jeans. She doesn't care about it. But she still looks good, looks beautiful, looks happier. I share that I had a crush on someone, she shared that she is going to marry an actor. And once again, shame on me.

As I've realized that she uses a cartoon picture as her profile picture, I'm looking for some photos that her High School's friends had tagged her. And I love one of five pictures that people tagged on her; everyone smiles at the camera or posing their self, she, the girl who has the messy hair, just sit on her school chair and reading a book.

Dear God, when I read what she'd written at our time chatting this night, i even can laugh. Even she's not here. Even she's somewhere further. And when I see your photo that I loved, I feel like I have a new spirit that could push me to have more spirit to go to school and learn something new. I feel like I've just wasted my time not to listen to the teacher. I feel like I disappointed by myself, and I disappointing myself.

My best friend, I don't know to express my longing more to you. You're officially being my role model this night. I'm proud for having you. I'm proud being your best friend. I'm proud I have a best friend like you. I'm proud of you, dear, nothing more.

I just... just want to meet you sooner. I just want to thank you. Because I know that I'll thank you more when I reach my twenty or older. You've made a great influence to my world. It sounds exaggerating, but it is the fact. I always pray the best for you and your life. Even I pray to my own God, and you pray to your own God. But our God will realize my wish, and your wish too.

I don't know what I have to say more, but dear best friend, my best friend in the world, Regina Putri Lawrence, I miss you so much.

Hope you might read it someday. Someday that maybe we couldn't meet each other anymore, someday that I had had a success life, someday that I can't say to you that I couldn't thank you more, someday that I could realize that you could make me write this long on my blog just to say thank you.

Your best friend who feels proud and grateful,

Chacha.

Ketika Wanita Menangis

2010-05-04T18:33:00.002+07:00

Ketika wanita menangis,
itu bukan berarti dia sedang mengeluarkan senjata terampuhnya,
melainkan justru berarti dia sedang mengeluarkan senjata terakhirnya.

Ketika wanita menangis,
itu bukan berarti dia tidak berusaha menahannya,
melainkan karena pertahanannya sudah tak mampu lagi membendung air matanya.

Ketika wanita menangis,
itu bukan karena dia ingin terlihat lemah,
melainkan karena dia sudah tidak sanggup berpura-pura kuat.

Windhy Puspitadewi - Let Go

Re-Post from Princess Diary

New Macbook, Alhamdulillah.

2010-05-02T16:00:00.001+07:00

I don't know how to thanks more. God, they were just bought me a new Blackberry, and a Canon DSLR a few weeks ago. And then when I came home, there's a Macbook on the bed. Ah, a million Alhamdulillah and thanks for my parents. I don't know what to say anymore, Mom, Dad. You're the best that I could have. I love you too much.

Crazy In Love

2010-05-01T21:42:00.001+07:00


Such a funny thing for me to try to explain,
How I'm feeling and my pride is the one to blame.
'Cuz I know I don't understand,
Just how your love your doing no one else can.

Beyonce ft Jay-Z - Crazy In Love

43 Things A Girl Wishes Their Boyfriend Knew

2010-04-28T21:00:00.000+07:00

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.
#2 When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.
#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.
#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.
#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.
#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.
#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.
#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.
#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.
#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.
#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.
#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.
#13 When she’s scared, protect her.
#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.
#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.
#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.
#17 When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.
#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.
#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.
#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.
#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.
#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.
#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.
#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.
#25 Don’t let her have the last word.
#26 Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.
#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.
#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.
#29 When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.
#30 When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.
#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.
#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.
#33 Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.
#34 Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.
#35 Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.
#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.
#37 Let her into your world.
#38 Let her wear your clothes.
#39 When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her.
#40 Let her know she’s important.
#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.
#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; “Who’s ass am I kicking today baby?”.
#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you’d read it too.

so, yeah, Bamby Hilvan, these are the words I want you to read and keep in your mind :)

happy three weeks anniversary!

2010-04-26T20:30:00.000+07:00

Ah capek banget sama tugas-tugas sekolah. Harusnya malem ini aku ngerjain tugas Manajemen Produksi yang bikin jadwal itu, but the computer looks so seductive, so I leave them behind. Oh iya besok udah 3 minggu since we've been together. The first week seems so long, but when we go through the second week, it seems so fast. I mean, maybe because we have a lot of things to do, so we were just lived it. The third week feels ummm feels random. Abisnya kita kan sekelas jadi bosen liat mukanya tiap hari. Kalo mukanya bisa diganti-ganti juga gak akan bosen pasti hahaha. Dan semakin ke sini kok banyak banget cewek-cewek yang pajang status facebook pake kata-kata kasar, frontal pula. Didn't they ashamed? Disgusting. Kayak gak pernah diajarin etika aja sama orang tuanya, kayak gak pernah sekolah aja. Ah topiknya jadi menyimpang deh nih. Okay, um i often ask myself, don't you get bored with him? I'm basically a quickly bored person. For example, I've just change my handphone for about a week ago, but I've got bored now. So the answer is, honestly, yes. Sebenernya aku menghindari pacaran sama temen sekelas ya, apalagi buat empat tahun. Tapi kalo suka gimana? And, did you remember that you did ask me why am I stay away from you during school? Jawabannya, balik lagi ke yang tadi, aku orangnya gampang banget bosenan. Makanya aku kalo di sekolah berusaha nganggap dia kayak temen biasa, yang gak harus terus berduaan di kelas. Soalnya kalo gitu pasti aku bakalan bosen banget. The simplest reason is, I want our relationship to last long, so I decided to anggap dia kayak temen kalo di sekolah. Kalo di luar, ya kita beda lagi. Aku butuh pengertian kamu, aku mau our relationship berjalan lama, and I don't lie.

So happy three weeks anniversary, dude! I hate you so much :*

you are nice blogger :)

2010-04-26T19:37:00.000+07:00

Wow, i got it from Rina, yay! Makasih yaaaa. Here is the rules:

ntuk award ini ada rules nya diantaranya musti pasang link ini di postingan tentang award ini, (WAJIB), dengan aturan, yang di nomor satu kamu hapus, lalu di nomor dua jadi nomor satu, diurutan ktiga jdi nomor dua (jadi naik satu tingkat). Trus yang nomor 10 kosong donk? nggak lah,, yg nomor 10 kamu isi pake Link Blog kamu,, Jadi kamu jadi urutan nomor 10,, setiap dapat award musti kayak gtu,, yg nomor satu kamu hapus, trus yg paling bawah alias yg terakhir kamu pasang link kamu,, ne daftar 10 link yg diminta kamu pasang:

1. Cinta Ngeblog
2.  Dark Ard Deidara
3. Coretan Cerita Harian
4. AkaneD'SiLa
5.  Ria Nugros
6. Ichsan Faridz
7. Fidya R. Arganita
8. Indira D.M
9.  Rina Syarifah Salma
1o. Mirdza Annisa

and so, I give it to:
1. Diana Afifah
2. Since I couldn't give it back to Rina, so I dedicated it to everyone who sees this post and comes to my blog.

Don't forget to visit those blogs above, guys!

kfc

2010-04-23T20:37:00.000+07:00

We went to kfc, takin some ice cream and late-lunch till the sunset.

it's the real colour, btw, no edit.

Credits:

1st photo
Taken by Me
Camera model: Canon EOS 1000D
Shutter Speed: 1/30
Aperture: 4.0
ISO: 1600
Date Taken: March 23, 2010
Time Taken: 17:54:39

2nd photo
Taken by Me
Camera model: Canon EOS 1000D
Shutter Speed: 1/10
Aperture: 5.6
ISO: 1600
Date Taken: March 23, 2010
Time Taken: 17:58:00

OH AND BY THE WAY, WE'RE NOT IN THE FIGHT AGAIN ;-)

Immature?

2010-04-22T19:01:00.000+07:00

As I said that you're a monkey, and then you signed out because you were mad at me! You said that was a mature behavior? Do you mature when I came with a joke and then you mad at me and blame me with that? PUHLEASEEEEE! You said that I'm immature, but can you just take a mirror and look at yourself there? Do you mature? Can you just remember a couple of minutes ago what you did to me? And you are mature, huh? You said that I have to understand people's feeling. But did you understand me that time? And you are mature?

Hello, I'm immature! How about you?

Happy Earth Day, People!

2010-04-22T17:33:00.000+07:00

Happy Earth Day, people! Let's give something to our beloved Earth from now on, since we've just take and take and never given. What thing that you've done for the Earth today? Use water if it's absolutely necessary, use both of side of the paper, and never ever ever throw the garbage in any place. Come on, guys, let's take a part of this campaign!

reviews

2010-04-21T21:39:00.000+07:00

two posts in a day! gah. alright, I've watched two movies this week, so yeah, here they are.

It's the story about three guys which started their study on the best Engineer College in their country. As every students have experienced, there are a lot of problem here. A suicide, and a time that a headmaster should be expelled them from the college, and how you have to maintain you friendship that you've built. This is the movie about friendship, about dreams, and about how life should go. Aal izz well, guys! This is the most watched movie this year! I watched it on the Videography subject, because the teacher want us to do so. So yeah, we watched. And when you feel sad or sumwhat, there'll be a funny things after a second or two. There's a lot lot lot lots of emotions in this film. So if you don't watch it sooner, you'll be the one who regrets. AAL IZZ WELL ;-D

Okay so I was too late to watch the movie in this week, because everyone had talked about it long time ago and many statuses I've read before. And this is another fantasy movie. Although I prefer Harry Potter (as I've idolized it long time ago), it has an amazing editing. The plot is awesome, and felt like I've watched the same movie but the again I remember that I watched a cartoon movie of Hercules, so the places are somewhat similar. Logan Lerman is soooooooo cute! But I still on your side, Justin :)

friend or family? both.

2010-04-21T21:09:00.001+07:00

ini Deden, ah pokonya kalo dia gak jual donat pagi-pagi tar Barbara pada lesu sampe seharian. donatnya aja langsung abis cuma 15 menit!

Adis, me.

scratch.

Me, Novi. We are best friends foreverrrrrrrrrrr!

you are addicting, just like cookies.

2010-04-18T17:38:00.000+07:00

Update!

2010-04-18T11:36:00.000+07:00

Gaaah I miss posting! It's already a couple of week I didn't post, just like a month. I had a hot temperature three days ago, it's 39, but then again I had a lot of schedule this week so I forced myself to go through it. And that's absolutely disgusting because I didn't wash my hair for about a week! I desperately need a holiday, bloggers, desperately and eagerly. It's like I have to go to school everyday with a fragile body and a stinky hair, yuck! Fortunately, I had a hijab on top of my head. Alright, why did I have to go to school even in weekends? We held an Open House named Dies Natalies. As I'm a coordinator of Photography, that's why I must attend every briefing. Ah, and I had a Photography class with Om Pepet last Sunday at Universitas Widyatama. It would be cool if I had a good condition.

We went to a class and Om Pepet gave us a lot of subjects (that I've known before, anyway) and we have to take a candid photo. I took some, but I didn't give it to the committee because I didn't feel well that time, so I decided just to watch some band performs.

And the next day (which is Sunday) I got to go to school, because the technical data of some photos are still on my DSLR. Grawr! From Monday-Wednesday I have to stay at stand of photography because I'm the coordinator. We started a normal school day again at Thursday-Saturday, and I NEED MY HOLIDAY EVEN A JUST ONE DAY. So I decided not to hang out this Sunday because I loooooooooooooooove my Sunday and no one could disturb my schedule this time. Yeaaaaaaah!!!!

Thanks.

2010-04-06T21:06:00.000+07:00

We're officially in a relationship.

We will start a crazy journey from now on. Jadi ntar kalo kamu anniversary, kita berdua juga ikutan anniversary. Ya kan, jelek? ♥

2010-04-05T20:38:00.000+07:00

Hey, can't you just stay here any longer?

why did i write these?

2010-04-04T22:40:00.000+07:00

look, i love you and i'm such an idiot person, an evil little cockroach who can't just accept your offer that night. because you know what, i wanna adapt myself first, i wanna make it like a special day, not just a day that we could forget it easily. i know i'm selfish. you often try to understanding me, when i'm too blind to see it. i'm a childish jerk who was always making your day any worse. i've never been good enough to be yours. i don't even try to make your day any better, or even just a normal day. i'm a your-day-destroyer. you've always been trying to make my day better, but i don't know a thank you. i sometimes even angry to you because of nothing! i often do destroy your struggles and gone like a little girl who broke her mother's vase. kodok, i'm sorry. if there's any word more than sorry, i'll shout it out over a million times.

kodok, maaf atas semuanya ya. aku syg kamu.

wrong

2010-04-04T13:53:00.000+07:00

we'll prove it wrong, dear, we will prove that it's just a bullshit.

Another Award. Yay!

2010-04-03T21:44:00.000+07:00

dapet award lagi bloggers hihiw yang satu ini dari Zay makasih yaaa

nah kalo ini dari Rizka, makasih yaaaa

okay, i'll give it to Dhia dan Kak Sinda :D

don't forget for visit their blog, yep!

What did she say?

2010-03-30T21:15:00.000+07:00

him: going 17

my mother: dah boleh punya pacar donk, hehe...

GAWDS SHE KNOWS THAT HE'S CLOSE WITH ME. SO IS IT THE SIGN, OR WHAT? LMFAO

the third award

2010-03-30T20:57:00.000+07:00

woooow i got the third award from Astari. thank you so muccch darla ;D

dan award ini aku bagiin ke:

Adadiba dan Zay

diambil yaaaaaw♥

Life is

2010-03-29T21:11:00.000+07:00

lebaynya, kamu itu bikin aku ngerti kalo hidup itu gak selamanya senang dan gak selamanya susah. bikin aku tau kalo keadaan aku kayak gini, gak boleh ada yang dikurang-kurangkan dan gak boleh ada yang dilebih-lebihkan. you show me the real world that we have to struggle at. I am me, and we are we. I'm not you, we're not you. I mean, aku selalu berharap yang berlebihan, lebih dan lebih, tapi ternyata banyak hal yang gak kalah indah kalau kita lihat ke bawah, atau lurus ke depan.

kamu bikin aku tau kalo nolong orang itu bukan cuma kalau orang minta tolong sama kita, tapi dimanapun, kapanpun, apapun, kalau ada kesempatan buat nolong, why not? you've said that kalau kita nolong orang, nanti kalau kita dapet kesusahan juga ditolong orang. you believe in justice, it means you know that the Almighty loves you. God, padahal aku tau itu udah dari TK, tapi aku baru nyadar kalo selama ini aku jarang nolong orang, kecuali orang itu yang minta. even though you don't know who was he!

kamu bikin aku percaya. sama apa aja, apa aja, asal kita percaya sama yang di atas, dan kita percaya kalau yang di atas juga tau bahwa itu adalah hal yang bener.

Gosh, you know what, I learned everything from you! Everything! everything about me, about you, and about how life should go :)

Photo Hunting

2010-03-25T21:11:00.000+07:00

Me and Bamby had a photo hunting this day and here is the photo which I love the most.

Wrong

2010-03-25T10:56:00.001+07:00

God, I know it's wrong. I mean, why did I write a lot of love postings nowadays? It's bothering me sometimes. My mother just said, "Are you in a relationship?". Geez, and I said, "No, I've said that I don't wanna have a boyfriend.". "But, you're look like that. Don't hang your relationship like this, girl.". "No, I don't hang it on. Me and him are only friends. That's all."

And I'm so confused right now. Do I have to only stay at our friendship or take a step forward. I mean, he's the guy that can create an atmosphere around people, and we will be crazy to each other when we meet. But if I do the relationship between us, it would be stale. Stale! HE IS A GREAT BEST FRIEND, GOD, BUT I LIKEEEEE HIM SO MUCH. SO GIVE ME A GUIDE, SHOULD I STAY IN THIS FRIENDSHIP OR GO TO THE RELATIONSHIP?

Three Reason of Fifty

2010-03-24T21:20:00.000+07:00

The three reasons of 50 Reasons.

1. Because you're a clown.

You never act cool or showing your handsomeness when you're in the crowd of many girls. You always make me laugh. The others do too. But you never shy for showing your ugly face when you made face with us. I mean, honestly, why should I like to be close with you? lol. You are weird, you are freak, you are nonsense, you are ugly when you making face. But you are my clown. You are the laugh in my sadness. You are the colour of my gloomy days. You are so annoying because after I finished crying, I laughed silently when I see you laugh. You had done the great job, dude. You're success made me laugh in all of my day for almost one year. You are a great friend, a great best friend!

2. Because you always make me bad mood.

Remember our first time on Yahoo! Messenger? That's one of the many reason why should i be bad mood. You mad at me suddenly, that time. I was so confused because I've done no fault at all. I apologized to you, but what did you do? You were just continuing your bloody sentences. I got my nerve and gone bad mood. And guess what that you did? You said, "Hooray! I've made another girl annoyed. That was only a joke, cha." My jaw opened and I signed out from that Messenger. You said sorry. You often ask me something useless about ME. And then I will ask you to stop, but you'll still talk about it. You often say the wrong sentences. I mean like this afternoon, It's because I have to cut my hair and I ruined our plan to go buy ice cream, right? I've apologized to you, but you said that you're the one who done the fault, and then you apologized to me because you don't have much plenty time for me. Gawds, it is my fault, and you blame yourself for it? Please! And you did what? You accused me that I would be mad at you because you didn't buy me an ice cream, and you said you didn't want me to be mad at you. Ahhhh, you got my nerve, boy. And then I went bad mood. It was all because of you.

Okay, stop all the past. It will make me bad mood again.

3. Because you're patient.

How angry I was, how bad mood I was, how arrogant I was, you always say sorry. You always beg me an apologize. Even though I'm not that mild to apologize you as soon as I can, but you always patient to overcome our, i mean, your problem. You often said that patience is the key for the success. Okay, I'll try it. Thanks for the lesson, dude. You got the point!

a kind of

2010-03-23T11:00:00.000+07:00

i called you love. kinda sweet but it's just not like myself. let it flow, monkey.

shit, i miss you like hell.

I'd rather admire someone

2010-03-21T14:14:00.000+07:00

i'd rather admire someone than being someone's gf. i'm fifteen and still love to have fun with people. i'd rather hang out with friends instead of take a date with a guy i loved. yes, i'm a girl. i love a guy, i like their face, their personality, their laugh.yes, i admire a guy.

i admire him. i love the way he runs, i love the way he laugh, i love the way he fell down (and i'll laugh out even louder). but once he ask something serious just like last night, all i have to do is think hard. i've promised to myself that i only can get a bf on my seventeen. i have a principle that when we tie a relationship ropes between us, i have to be serious through it. even though that was too serious remembering that i'm on my fifteen (ok, you can laugh now. i was too exaggerate), i don't wanna see the relationship as a game that we can playing and cheating at. i mean, when we live through the relationship and you think that we can broke up sometimes but not now and then you'll be looking for your new gf/bf, and do it all over again for the umpteenth time until someone propose you in the future and you finally married. i don't wanna be like that. i want a long-lasting relationship, that's why i'm still being a single lady right now. blah.

maybe my standards were too high to reach, but i'm perfectionist.

in this case, i'm talking about him and our last night occasion. that was pretty cool. even though i knew that he loves me before, but still! he ask me with his usual joke and somewhatssss, it drives me crazy. i was confused that time. do i have to stand on my principle or not? i mean, i love him too, but i'm pretty sure that if we do the relationship, we'll act different and upside down. he'll be nicer and will often praise me. you'll think that it's even better, but i even do love him when we were bickering at each other. when he was mocking at me and stuck his tongue out to me. yes, i'm weird, but it's a fact, guys.

and i decided to save his question last night for the right time. i don't know when the right time is, but i know that my answer should be 'yes'. so be patient, boy. you know i love you more :D

lots of love and friendship,

chacha

that yahoo! messenger

2010-03-20T23:11:00.000+07:00

him : WYLTBMGF
me : WYLTBMGF?
him : separate each words.
me : W Y L T B M G F
him : got it?
me : nope. wait, i do. but, i don't really know =))
him : name it.
me : Would You Like To Be My Girlfriend
him : you got it =))
me : right! i'm brainy, aren't i? =))

you could guess what we do after he said those pretty words :)

because,

2010-03-17T21:31:00.000+07:00

i love the way he runs and shows his love to the God in the evening on the mat :)

saturday night

2010-03-14T00:21:00.000+07:00

it was yahoo! messenger. we talked for about four hours, and it was almost midnight. and i called you with the nice nickname, just like you. you told me some stories. the genres of indie music, the drum, and a lot of secrets that you wanted me to keep them with me. did i mention that we laughed too much, even in yahoo! messenger? that sounds so much fun. okay so you felt sleepy. i said go sleep. you refused that. we talked again.

it was our last time, and then you said; good night, love ♥

i smiled and you signed out.

exhausting week

2010-03-06T22:27:00.000+07:00

haaaaaaaa i've been very busy this month! i've done shooting with all of colour production's crew last friday, and Mrs. Mila chose me and Bamby to be the photograph coordinator because we'll held an open house next April (it's called Dies Natalies). and i've just done the concept with Bamby this afternoon. it made us go home lately. he picked me up and then the rain fell down. he offered me his jacket, but no, i said that i can handle it (but in fact i got a flu right now). we drove through the rain. it was cold yet fun lol. and so i have to go to the Cimindi's fly over tomorrow at eight am. THEY'RE STEALING MY SUNDAY AGAAAAIN! we'll draw a mural painting on the pillar for seven hours. could you believe it? oh yeah, and there'll be monday that i have to presenting our concept that we've done in front of the open house committe. aaaargh i wanna upload some photos that we took when we did shooting, but they're in dodo's camera :( i'll upload them later.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JUSTIN!

2010-02-28T12:18:00.000+07:00

it is March 1st and i hope all of your wishes come true. i'm just a huge mere fan and you don't know me. but i hope your life's going better, i pray for your career, your love life, your everything! and of course, your new album which would be released a few days more. My World 2.0. Happy birthday, Justin Bieber! now you're bigger like your single title! woohoo hope i could meet you there. and anyway, the dirthday card is awful because it made by me. sorry, if it is ugly. once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JUSTIN BIEBER! YOU'RE THE BEST IDOL I'VE EVER IDOLIZED♥

your huge fan,

Mirdza Annisa :)

PS: God, I'm nervous!

errg

2010-02-25T21:35:00.000+07:00

kaos angkatan

2010-02-25T21:10:00.000+07:00

jadi ceritanya angkatan aku, broadcast 6th mau bikin kaos angkatan. firstly, anak kelas aku rencananya cuma buat kaos kelas aja. tapi wali kelas kita bilang gak boleh, harus kaos angkatan. taulah anak broadcast gimana. saking kompaknya ya kelas A sama B aja kaosnya gak boleh beda. hm. okay so, this is the design:

yang atas itu depannya. nah kalo yang bawah belakangnya. ide pertama yang design clapper itu dari Aldy, terus disempurnakan sama Bamby plus design bagian belakangnya. well, it really is good! i love the design :D

beloved class of mine

2010-02-25T20:46:00.000+07:00

hey bloggies, mind visiting this blog? thanks :) it is blog of my class that i've just created hours ago. it's still in progress but i promise it'll be a funny blog. every member of the class should be create a post for the blog.

BARBARA'S AWESOME DAYS

thaaaanks! and yeah find me on my twitter. AND tomorrow is a holidaaaaaaay! XD

dear, boy

2010-02-22T16:45:00.000+07:00

i saw you in the distance.
i tried to act normally, when you untidy her hair.
i followed you laugh, when both of you laughing.
i arched my lips upward, when you smile at her.
i pretended not to see, when you stare at her face.
i missed you, when i know that you miss her.
and i'm willing to be your nothing.
because she is already becoming your everything.

hey, boy

2010-02-22T16:34:00.000+07:00

IHNBAIPOI

2010-02-21T10:00:00.000+07:00

noooo offense. cuma saya mau bikin list kenapa saya bangga jadi wanita (?) single.

1. I'm free to idolize anyone. yak actually, ini bener-bener jadi salah satu alasan kenapa aku bikin postingan ini. sekarang ini aku lagi gencar-gencarnya ngidolain JB. taulah JB siapa, yakan? bukan karena sekarang emang jamannya ngidolain JB. nononono, saya udah lama tau si JB ini sebelum dia tenar di facebook kayak sekarang. ampe setiap hari kayaknya foto dia ada di news feed. nah apa hubungannya sama pacar? berhubung JB ini cowok kan ya, jadi nanti kalo punya pacar aku gak akan bisa bener-bener jadi totally Beliebers kayak sekarang. i'll put the boyfriend's photo instead of JB's. walaupun gak mungkin aku lepas dari dunia Beliebers, tapi setidaknya akan mengurangi beberapa persen aku jadi Beliebers. or maybe i'll be busy of texting instead of fangirling. whoaa i couldn't imagine if i'm not a totally Beliebers anymore!

2. I'm free to go anywhere. --without some bloody words and advices. pada dasarnya memang i hate a possessive person. kalo orang tua ya harus gue maklumi lah ya. tapi kalo bukan, hell no. siapa anda bisa ngatur-ngatur saya boleh pergi kemana aja.

3. I'm free to have many crushes. yeeees! ini udah jelas banget kan. kalo punya pacar berarti kita ibaratnya kayak dikandangin dan gak boleh keluar dari batas itu (yang berarti gak boleh cuci mata).

4. I'm free to eat anything. taulaaah cewek gimana. kalo gendut dikit, buru-buru olahraga sampe keringetan biar berat badannya turun, atau parahnya beli obat pelangsing, padahal cuma mau nurunin satu kilo. dan abis itu bela-belain gak makan nasi biar badannya tetep langsing. tapi aku gak kayak gitu juga sih. mau banyak makan atau gimana juga badan gak pernah gendut-gendut. jadi, ya alasan nomer empat gak berlaku buat aku. HUHAHAHA.

5. I'm free from the sin. yang ini bener-bener jelas. i'm a moslem.

walaupun ini gak menutup kemungkinan, setidaknya saya menuruti perintah orang tua yang bilang gak boleh pacaran di umur segini. katanya ntar aja kalo udah punya KTP biar agak dewasa pikirannya. yang dilakukan sekarang adalah senang-senaaaang! kapan lagi di umur 17 tahun bisa seneng-seneng kayak sekarang? yiha!

so, this post dedicated to myself. and if you just felt that this post is dedicated to you, then i'll dedicate it to you with no offense. i repeat it, no offense.

be rained and shivering? no.

2010-02-20T20:42:00.000+07:00

nite bloggies! i wanna share some random things in this post. i went home today at three pm as well. actually, it was abnormal remembering there're few days left to the day that we'll do shooting. yet again, our Production House hasn't done our script revision yet and it has to be collected on next monday. but i'm a stubborn-little-git-who-wanna-go-home-early, so i went home without permission to my producer.

shortly, it was a rainy day and there are lots of thunder in the sky. i was in front of my computer when i heard some horn voices came from the outside. they were ratna and dodo who sat on ratna's motorcycle, be rained and shivering.

"Chacha, i wanna use your loo. i can't stand it, i wanna pee!" ratna said as she put her motorcycle at the garage. i nodded and let her to use my loo.

well, THEY'RE WET. and fortunately, they brought their another uniform and got change after they used the loo.

i asked where the hell have they been. and they said, they were asked for the location permission for our shooting later. i'm a bad scriptwriter.

sorry if the pictures weren't that clear. i resized them.

she closed her face when i was saying that i'll take the proof for my blog lol

he asked that do i have a hairdryer or not, and then i said yes and gave it to him. bloody hell, he used that to dried his wet uniform.

whoaaaaaaa i couldn't upload any photos more! they're always failed. well, they weren't important at all lol.

okay so, in fact, they came to my house because they were looking for some foods! they were looking for my mother, because if she was here, they expect she will take care of them and give them some foods. but my mother wasn't at home lmfao she was at her campus. poor them.

the prince and his golden train

2010-02-17T18:48:00.000+07:00

the princess sat on a chair in the golden train after the prince ask her to come home when the ball had finished. he made her laugh. he made her just threw her mask which she always wore to hide herself. she was too talkative that night as if she hasn't talked before. she was just simply like herself. the princess who could smile, the princess who could laugh out loud in front of anyone without having to feel ashamed, the princess who was becoming herself, the princess who wasn't longer to wore a mask. the princess. you didn't know what it's like, but she felt such a happiest girl in the town. she felt free and yeah just like she could blew her problems away.

you know what, she thinks that she fell over him.

Tweet me!

2010-02-14T15:14:00.000+07:00

@mirdzannisa

Basic System Operation PROJECT

2010-02-14T13:27:00.000+07:00

N.B: a lot of please do not copy my work. if you wanna do that, please ask me first or put the credit. thank you.

the first task is making a film poster by photoshop. this one is mine.

and this is Ratna's

and the second task is making an announcement. i made it a concert announcement. typical me. okay this one is mine

bought some

2010-02-14T13:11:00.000+07:00

i bought a comedy-romantic DVD, a romantic DVD, and a fantasy one. i haven't watch them yet.

bored

2010-02-13T22:34:00.000+07:00

the second post today.

i'm on my bored night waiting some downloadable things. 17% left and i wanna jump onto my bed and go sleep. you must be upset with this post because i posted this at ten in the night but i've just posted in the previous post that i'm only allowed until nine pm. i have a reason, you know.

a thought popped in my mind suddenly. i have no crush. i have NO-EVEN-ONE crush at all. could you feel how empty it feels? well, obviously i'm still in love with my jhs-crush, though not that full. but i can't do anything else if i don't have any crush. i couldn't take a glance on someone. i couldn't talk with novi about someone. i couldn't play the love songs with some feelings dancing on my mind.

damn. 10% left and i have no topic anymore.

bad start

2010-02-13T21:48:00.000+07:00

i woke up better late than usual this morning and then i walked out of my room to the kitchen. i reached the handle of the back door and tried to turning the key. and it didn't open. i tried again. nothing happened. i've got my patience and that beautiful-wonderful-great-little-word came from my bloody mouth. well, not a word at all! i was just groaned. and she heard it, because she also was in the kitchen that time. believe me, that little groan sent me into the hell, into the whole discourse in the morning when i should be settled down some things and simply eat my breakfast. and guess what is the result!

i'm not allowed to touch my computer if tomorrow was a schoolday and i'm only free double-click that Flock Web Browser icon on saturday night but only until nine pm. and plus, no handphone.

this is it.

so trust me, don't even try to groan when your mother was on her period because it will be increasing her emotion and all we have to accept is the unfairness thingy.

thank you, mother.

something and everything

2010-02-12T22:11:00.000+07:00

barbara shared everything yesterday. well, when i say everything, it IS everything. firstly, Miss Lidya, the guidance counseling teacher, arranged us to play some simulations in our broadcasting studio. they were exhausting but great at the same time. we devided to several groups. my group's name is Like This (Bamby proposed that ridiculous name). the first simulation is fell back and down. two table stecked up and all we have to do is climb onto the top of the table and turn back. the other group members have to catched us up when we plunge straight into the back and all we could do is pray pray pray and pray so that we won't break our bones. the second simulation called Komunikata. a member from another group whisper a sentence into the ear of the very back of our members. and then the hindmost have to whisper the sentence til the front member of our group. okay it's hard to explained. and the last is! sharing. everyone had been a truthfully person yesterday. that time was touching us. some of us crying, some of us angry, some of us still. but in the end, we knew that the truthness and the trustness are the best way we could keep. and we hugging each other! i love barbara so much. i've never ever ever ever ever found the fellows like them. i'll post some pictures later. they were great great great great and awesome! and a little bit crazy but don't worry, they don't bite. wohoooooo it's a half past ten in the night and i have to wake up earlier tomorrow. good bye, bloggies! heve a nice dream, have the nice fellows, have the nice classmates! the truthness and trustness would be such a powerful charm!

♥ Chacha

Tag-an Riri

2010-02-12T15:52:00.001+07:00

1. WHERE IS U'R CELL PHONE

di depan muka

2. RELATIONSHIP

single dong

3. U'R HAIR?

lurus panjangnya medium

4. WORK?

anak broadcast pembangunan dong sangar kan guee

5. U'R SISTERS?

lala

6. U'R FAVORITE THING?

a lot

7. U'R DREAM LAST NIGHT?

entah. black screen kayaknya

8. U'R FAVORIT DRINK?

jus alpuket dan susu putih

9. U'R DREAM CAR?

punyanya tom felton B-)

10. U'R SHOES?

yang penting modelnya sama enak dipake

12. WHAT DO U WANT TO BE IN 10 YEARS?

sukses

13. WHO DID U'R HANG OUT WITH LAST WEEK

barbara

14. WHAT ARE U NOT GOOD AT

banyak

15. ONE OF U'R WISH LIST ITEM?

16. WHERE U GREW UP?

bandung

17. LAST THING U DID?

makan cokelat

18. WHAT ARE U WEARING?

kaos putih sama celana pendek

19. U'R COMPUTER?

PC, not Mac

20. U'R PET?

i never ever ever ever like animals

21. U'R LIFE?

great

22. MISSING?

him

23. WHAT ARE U THINKING RIGHT NOW?

kenapa nyamuk demen banget nyium kaki gue

24. U'R CAR?

masih 15 tahun belum punya SIM

25. U'R KITCHEN?

apa sih nih gak jelas banget pertanyaannya

26. U'R FAVORIT COLOR?

semuanya

27. LAST TIME U LAUGH?

at school

28. LAST TIME U CRIED?

two days ago

29. LOVE?

Allah SWT, Muhammad SAW dan orangorang yg aku sayang (ngikutin riri)

30. SO WHO WANTS TO SHARE THEIR ONE'S? HOW ABOUT?

no one

31. Person elected to the tag

Nabilah Hasna P

February

2010-02-05T22:19:00.000+07:00

welcome back february! schooldays have been very busy lately and i have no sunday for three weeks in a row. isn't it ridiculous? have to be working hard for project work this term, public service announcement. btw, my school will be held an exchange student program with Turkey next term. i extremely wish i could get it! Turkey is awesome enough! i wanna take that and i know i can (blah). and you know what, i had no point in this post, for sure. so let me just finish this and go sleep. unnecessary post, i know. no inspiration! GRARRR.

and i change the layout! gnight!

formspring.me

2010-02-05T00:10:00.001+07:00

Ask me eeeeeverything! http://formspring.me/ccchacha

laziness

2010-01-29T21:15:00.000+07:00

imagine, i have no weekends on two weeks in a row. school and school and school even in my weekend. and i only had one free day in a week; sunday. and they take it! twice in a row. i have noooooo weekends, guys, nothing! tomorrow they'll held unimportant event again and causing us to stay overnight at school! AT SCHOOL!

i hate this world. nighty night, bloggies. i have to take care to my deviantart. XO

Alexa Chung

2010-01-29T14:17:00.000+07:00

everyone knows Alexa Chung, and she is my inspiration. if i could tell you an opinion, she often wears clothing that doesn't cover her legs. her pretty leg, that i wish i could have them. AND a pair of boots. wanna see some proof?

they really are my style.

casting casting!

2010-01-28T18:48:00.000+07:00

me and my production house colour production, just held a casting for our project work this term. i'm a script writer so i have to be a jury of the casting, with Ratna the producer and Dinda the director. btw, a problem had fixed and we (me and dinda) are not longer become freinds again. as i say, everything's will be okay just like before. yeah!

when i lost

2010-01-27T21:42:00.001+07:00

find me and save me. when i lost.

stupid

2010-01-27T20:54:00.000+07:00

just blame me and my emotions. i can't handle those. i couldn't hold my anger. i couldn't bear the tears i've cried out. they were just gone out and i couldn't stop it when they went through with it. i sometimes feel lost, you know. it's just like shoo! then i feel lonely and nobody can't save me. it was like everything left me in the black world, no door, no light. okay it's exaggerate. but please, help me out of theeeeese problems. i wanna handle my emotions but they don't know. they don't even want to know that i worked hard to try to keep my emotion. it was just wrong. give me a chance. i ain't perfect. oh yeah, call me a crybaby girl, because i am. fighting, i'm not fighting. just try to talk about facts. but she didn't wanna hear me. i have a heart, you know. i've apologized to you. and the rest is yours. we're a team, okay? ;-(